I went into town (Stockholm) today, and made a few sketches. It got me thinking of how strange it is that I, who enjoy drawing so much, always have a few minutes of extreme drawing anguish before I actually start sketching. I don´t mind the people around me when sketching outdoors, noone ever says anything and I doubt that anyone actually sees what I am doing. And if they do, that´s ok too. No, for me the problem is a strange hesitation and dreading before getting into the “drawing zone”. I can walk around on location for ten to twenty minutes just trying to find “the right spot” or waiting for “the right feeling” to appear, when actually the subject is right in front of me and I don´t need a certain “feeling” to draw, I just need to DO IT! Once I get started I am ok, I can keep on drawing for hours.
The funny thing is that I really look forward to drawing outdoors before I leave home. I feel lucky to be able to spend a few hours on drawing when I´m in the mood for it. And I am full of bliss while I´m at it. It is the few minutes before I actually start drawing that are difficult. Isn´t that stupid? Does anyone else have this dilemma? And if so, what do you do about it?
All drawings are 8 x 12 cm, Lamy Safari, Noodler´s Black and Lexington Grey and watercolors on a small Moleskine Watercolor page.